Finding the routes to success through failure

I'm recognizing finally that I'm trying to solve a lot of life problems all at once. This is not going to be an easy process, nor should it be. I'm trying to break attitudes and habits that I've held for about 10 years. This includes procrastination, fear of my creative process, excessive masturbation, promiscuity, general laziness, and poor diet. I have had some successes in these areas for the past few weeks, most notably in the exercise area. For the past two weeks (and into a third) I have managed to exercise at least 30-45 minutes a day for six days a week. I haven't really lost any weight yet, but I do feel a bit better and more in touch with my body.

My largest target is capping my masturbation and promiscuity. Yesterday, I blocked all the websites I frequently jack off to or attempt to hook up on. eHow has a great tutorial on how to block access to websites on a mac that I used as a refresher for how to quickly do it. The effects are instant and now every time I try to access those sites, I'm greeted with my business website's homepage. Quick, free, and effective. If I want to access those sites I have to manually edit a text file to gain access.

This has worked fairly well today so far, except for a few sites I forgot. I also never did offload the porn on my hard drive so I'm going to collect it all and do so after I post this. So I did end up masturbating a bit today, but I did not look at the hookup sites so I'm calling it a victory for the day and shoring up the defenses a bit. Any site I accessed in pursuit of getting off I added to the block list. I think this is actually going to work in the long term.

I applied to two gigs today. I'm not sure if they'll pay or not, but they're in line with my career goals, so I figured at the very least they'll give me something to occupy myself with so I'm not here thinking about how little money or prospects I have but I actually spend my time doing something.

And with that, I am calling today's entry complete as I go forward productively.

All the best,

j