On Being Human

I seem to forget that I'm human when I make grand plans for myself. I forget that I am fallible. That I will always make mistakes. That nobody is perfect, myself included. So when a setback occurs, or the unexpected happens, I shut down and don't deal with it in stride, with grace.

So my grand plan is posted for all to see. I managed to maintain the P.E. for the whole month, and saw a gain of .25" in length and .125" in girth. Pretty cool, and I'm going to keep it up in some capacity going forward. My erections seem firmer. As far as exercise goes, I haven't stayed with the exact plan I proposed, but I have managed to cement yoga as a principal part of my morning routine. It's not a lot, but it's a start. I haven't made much obvious progress in terms of stats (I haven't bothered measuring again) but at least I haven't lost any ground this month. In terms of work and general drive and motivation (including stopping masturbating) I've made absolutely no headway.

It's clear going forward that it's critical for me to develop a healthy attitude toward sex and masturbation. Whenever I get aroused, my ability to do any work goes completely out the window. My main focus and goal for this month going forward is to stop masturbating. It's not going to happen all at once, there are going to be times when I am weak, but I am going to accomplish this. This is the next step in my development as a person, and I've let my life stagnate for years.

So, starting a life without masturbating, beginning today (again). Wish me luck!

All the best,

j