Some success finally

Yesterday was a complete success. I woke up, did my morning routine, exercised, showered, cleaned the house, and then switched gears and warmed up on the piano and worked on my composition until Wes came home. I'm getting the urge to jack off now, unfortunately. But I'm going to continue to fight it until I get some composition done tonight. I want to at least get the first major section of the tango completed. And then, I don't know. Maybe I'll read.

The point to record is that I correctly identified shame and insecurity as causes for wanting me to escape into masturbation, and I also managed to disrupt that chain in progress. So I think I've finally hit on something that's going to work to turn this around.

Now to exercise, shower, and get my day underway. Today got a bit of a late start because my boyfriend doesn't work the afternoon today so we get to spend it together. I also slept in way too far this morning (really should have gotten up at 9 with my alarm, that's something to work on for the weeks to come) so I didn't get done what I wanted to. I should remember this for tomorrow that I've felt a bit out of sorts today because of my late start.