Trouble spots

My resolve has started to die again. I called the former personal trainer over the weekend and left him a message telling him to call me back since I couldn't stop thinking about him. Fortunately he decided not to call me back.

My boyfriend and I had a threesome with the same hot dancer again. This time didn't go quite as well. We had some fun, and Wes fucked him, but after that it started to get awkward and the dancer told us that he wasn't interested in having a threesome again, but he still wanted to hang out. So I guess we're going to still hang out, though I'm upset I didn't get to fuck him. Which has made me horny in not the right ways lately. But I'm trying to deal with it as best I can.

I have been masturbating lately, but I am working again toward stopping.